After a buzzing week of new information at work and social engagements, and 2am knock-out time every night, I was ready to wave the white flag come Friday night… I had only squeezed in two yoga practices by then and felt kinda out of sorts. That said, I’m not complaining. New environments always appeal to my senses and I’m one who relishes in good conversations with new and old pals cos connections kinda rock, no?
However, I realised as social as I am, I’m also extremely introverted. I love, crave, hanker, yearn for alone time. By Saturday, I was like “Woohoo! Lonesome time!” and was seriously deliriously happy that when I was supposed to head out on Sunday arvo for a catchup with a dear old friend from school, I felt a sense of dread. Seriously. Who behaves like that?! And it’s this extreme behaviour that always has me befuddled why some people simply cannot be alone. I just go “Huh? Really???” when I hear tales of others not being able to have a meal or movie alone. Too weird, these people…
Moreover, I had the pleasure of my little nieces and nephew hanging around me that day, making me feel as if I was a damn cool aunt to be seen with. Actually, it was just Kirsten begging for her toenails to be lacquered and loser Seth was begging the same even though his big sis and I were both insisting it wasn’t something boys do… And little Kayla was intrigued by the colours so I had Kiks and Seth sitting in front of me side by side as Kayla was my little assistant, pretending to ‘apply’ nail polish remover on her siblings.
When I finally had to tear myself apart (you get the idea where my nieces and nephew get their dramatic antics from…) from them, I hopped onto a bus and plugged on my iPod and this song by Stars came on…
and brought a smile to my face. That’s the beauty of having 10,000 songs embedded in your iTunes, you keep discovering and rediscovering music.
Immediately I felt so at ease, despite not being able to spend some ‘alone’ time cos it was on the journey that I realised as long as you feel at home with the person that you are, you’ll feel it’s home wherever you may be. It’s always about the journey, not the destination, no?